Chapter 3: Singapore...

After Little Cathie finished her primary school... she was sent to Singapore by her parents to continue her study... she was left alone (her brother was with her, but they weren't close).. alone.. in a foreign country.. when she reached singapore.. she was to stay with her guardian... her guardian was a middle-age Indonesian woman, let's call her Tante, her husband, Uncle, and her 2 sons, Ger and Bert... Little Cathie was the only girl there.. she felt alone.. there was no one to talk to.. she cried and cried and cried for days, begging her parents to take her back to her home country... but her parents had faith in her..

Little Cathie studied English during her 1st six months there.. because she was alone, she tried to change.. she became more open.. she became more sociable.. she tried to enjoy her time there..

When it was time to start her new class @ her new school, she was scared.. it was all very new to her... going to school alone by bus and MRT... but then it was not at all bad.. during the 1st 2 years, she met a lovely girl, Ver.. though there were times when they lost contact, they became best friend up until now (thank u Ver) ^0^.. she felt quite happy during those times..

but it all change when she reached her 3rd year... there was no Indonesian girl in her class.. Little Cathie felt alone... and all her classmates were not friendly.. she became an outcast once again.. the only times that she felt happy was during Malay language class and during recess... but she did met 2 lovely Singaporean girls though, Yun and Fa ^^.. they became her only friends in the class... Because Little Cathie didnt like school that much, she skipped lots and lots of class.. until Tante was called by her principal (hahaha.. so sorry Tante)... Little Cathie hated Biology and A-Maths class, but she loves English, Geography and Literature classes ^^...

During her 3rd year, there were already quite a few girls in her house.. and she became best friend with a girl called Ven.. but it didnt last long.. just because of 2 guys.. *sigh*... Little Cathie became the popular girl in the house.. all of the boys like her.. she was friendly and outgoing... and she met her 1st boyfriend there... Rick was lovely... though he got his own problems too.. his father died and he became bitter.. but his mom was lovely... it was quite a challenge for Little Cathie to be in a relationship with someone who's experienced so much... Rick was quite a rebel.. didnt want to go to school.. smokes... likes to go to Batam (to gamble??)... and it was with him she experienced her first petting... hahaha.. but it didnt last long.. she was not feeling it... and so they broke up (Little Cathie was still childish >.<)... since then, Little Cathie and Ven became distant.. Ven likes Rick, and she felt that Little Cathie took him from her... but the worse was yet to come..

On her last year in Singapore, during her 'O Level'... her parents quarelled to the point of divorcing... her dad kept calling her and calling her mom names that are not fit for a daughter to hear about her mom... it affected the 3 children they have... Little Cathie's brother became a rebel.. he was once a diligent son, but at that time, he couldnt care less... he skipped school, he went to take his 'A Level' and failed.. and Little Cathie's sister became depressed to the point where she needed to be taken to a psychiatrist... Little Cathie was so stressed, it was too much for her heart.. so she tried to take her own life... but she was saved...

at that point in her life, another guy came into her life.. let's call him Jawa (hahhaha.. so sorry, but everyone called u by that name =p)... he was... her 1st love... he took her virginity.. Little Cathie was quite an innocent girl, so she didnt know what happened.. when she saw the blood, she thought she had her monthly flow... but it wasnt so.. and so she knew that she had lost something precious.. after that, she fell deeper to Jawa.. she gave her all to him.. every morning, she would wake up, took a bath, iron out Jawa's school uniform and prepared breakfast for him.. everything he asked, she would give it to him.. she thought he loved her.. but it seemed that he was just taking advantage.. The day came when Little Cathie's heart was broken.. Jawa two-timed her with Ven.. they kissed in front of her.. they did things that hurt her... and it broke her heart... she couldnt handle it... she started drinking alcohol and smoking.. when she didnt feel better, she tried to commit suicide for the second time... but luckily she was saved again.. she became a different girl.. she kept crying... but she still was able to finished up her study and then went back to her hometown... she loved Jawa so much that she allowed him to deflower her.. but looked what he did to her... Little Cathie felt that there wont be anyone who'll love her again as she wasnt perfect anymore... but her mom was there for her.. to support her... her mom even asked her if she wanted to undergo an operation to get her virginity back.. but Little Cathie said no.. she knew that it would mean that she'll be lying to her future husband, and she didnt want to do it... she tried to be brave about it, though she felt like it was the end of the world...

When she was calming down, Jawa tried to call her again and again.. and he called her using a fake name and collectcall.. so Little Cathie had to pay for the bill... everytime he called, he just asked for money.. he was quite a junkie by that time, so he got no money left.. and he told his dad that Little Cathie borrowed money.. and stupidly, Little Cathie agreed to give him money.. oh what she would do for love... luckily her mom was there for her.. and Little Cathie was forced to wake up from her dreams of Jawa loving her... and finally, she let him go.. and she led a calmer life... with her mom by her side..

and so.. when she was 16.. Little Cathie found out about love, broken heart.. about how life was not and would not be as sweet as she thought.. that there will be times when it hurt.. and she learned to live through the bad times... and she gained a new best friend, her mom.. thank u mom.. ^0^